Scarcity of Light

And so it begins. That darker part of the year. We are now officially in Wintertime, as we just set back the time one hour. The seemingly never ending part of life up here in the North is taking over, where light becomes scarce, indoor flowers suffer and too many calories being put on.

It is a strange time, not so easy to put in words. To live in an environment where darkness dominates weeks after weeks. Do not mix that up with me complaining. I am not. In fact, we had more sunshine this far, than average. Compared to last year around the same time, when the sun Stopped shining", and an excessive long time took over, for many weeks, with barely any sunshine at all. it was so cloudy for most of the time, that the 30 day average sunshine hours per day dropped like a stone, all the way below 0.5 sunshine per day.

"Paranoica"

When which periods happens - it does get to you, whether you like or not. It is simply too little sunshine. Even the plants notice it - and some also die (unless you give them extra light one or the other way).

But this has not happened so far. October has been above average - in fact, quite a lot above average. The temperature also have been higher than normal - making it rather pleasant to go out and about. Therefor - i am really not complaining. Instead I remind myself of how dull it can get - just in order to "guard" myself from within. What can be expected now, and many month ahead... Like every winter, so to speak.

Now because Christmas time is waiting around the corner - what a strange thought right now - that time gives some respite. It illuminates the city with artificial lighting in so many different ways, that it becomes cozy. It isn't until when you walk into January, especially in the end - it can get tedious with that dark winter time. Except those days, when fresh fallen snow graces our lands, blue sky and a bright low standing sun shines. Those days are very special. When there is no wind, even -8°C don't really feel that cold.

The soul smiles on such days.

Lucky. But it wasn't always this way

In a way, I am lucky. Because I am such an extreme night person, which loves night time - together with high amounts of daily Vitamin D3 (20.000 IU) + K2 in one, don't really get those much deeper depressed days (or even periods) anymore.

I remember back in time, when my emotions where more on the outside more than not. Kind of a far more unstable way of living, with strong ups and downs. And no vitamins ever - combined with food that wasn't always the best way to take in nutrition. Not to mention all the sweet stuff i sometimes tend to eat. It all contributes to more unstable psychological phenomenas, when the brain doesn't get what it needs in nutritions, vitamins and minerals.

What many youngsters and young people tend to forget - that it affects both brain, but also the intestines - where the bacteria have a direct effect ( manipulation ) to the brain. (via peptides). Kind of highly interesting when you think about it. Because i never thought about it, and i never knew about it either - that these things are very strongly tied together.

So, I fought a strange #what seemed to be an endless fight" though younger & and especially though middle life years, without even knowing that also the way i was eating affected my emotions far more than i was aware of.

Magnesium

was the first thing i encountered, that changed things in my mental health to the better.

It made me calmer and more tolerant against stress i noticed after a half year). That was like 9 years ago, when i started to study vitamins. Very slowly, incrementally i gained knowledge. Fascinated over time, by the significance vitamins and minerals actually have.... in so many ways. And how they work together - or if you make errors, can prevent each other (dependent on the type of food you eat, etc). It can get pretty complicated to understand the finer details. But in general, minerals and vitamins, are definitely a splendid way to up your body, and your health as well your mental health.

But it isn't found in the multivitamin pills you get in the normal food store. You know those that bubble in a glass of water. Avoid those at all costs, due to the pesky bulk ingredients they throw in those. Which strain the kidneys and can lead to damages over time.

The Bold Whore • The Dark side of the Industry

Funny, how the industry, when it puts forth something "good for health", always tend to put in bad stuff in there as well. I wonder where such cynical thinking comes from. Certainly not from the heart and common sense. The resonance from such BS smells very low. Predator / sociopathic thinking, combined with greed and pursuit for power as well the lack of empathy and care - have lead to countless products we use and eat today, which speaks like a bold whore; how good it is for you - putting lots of effort into glossy wrappings and great expressions - but in reality often leans towards the opposite of what it promises.

How long are we buying into this ?

Or is it this way; ? That it is the price we pay as "fast" consumers for not thinking and reflecting - spending too much time into wishful thinking, and often preferring a quick fix ? Too lazy to think. It might hurt. Or consume time. We save on the wrong ends more often than not.

Entitlement Whores; above as well below

And the other extreme that equally captures the human ego and fallacy, is when we totally overdo things to the extreme. Health freaks and so on. Leaning towards control freaks. Another way of prison. Opposites, and yet fueled by the same low vibrations - capturing and jailing the human mind, keeping as at bay, at our lower frequencies. Mission accomplished, might the ones "higher above" think, who feel entitled to rule over lands and minds. Those who feel like the "Kings and Queens", but are often vultures; spoiled, entitled, greedy and cynical assholes, when you scrape a little deeper into the glossy cool skins.

We are strange, fascinating creatures.