I am not sure yet - if this interest is just a fluke - or something that i may find interesting for a longer time. The idea of writing a classic, handwritten and private Diary again. You know with a nice ink fountain pen like in the old days in Berlin in the 80s...

I kind of like the idea of sometimes going to a café and write into a handwritten Diary. Or at the kitchen table, without any digital devices. The slow form of expression (in both Swedish as well English language). Yeah, I really like that idea, to pick up where i left off a long time ago.

I will continue to write into my PhotoDiary here - of course - mainly because of photography. I am perhaps not as private in my writing as I used to be - because I feel conflicted about how much I really want to show my inner thoughts. Also because I feel that I am not as good in actually writing about what really moves my mind, soul and heart (which is a pity, to be honest). Because in general I find it more interesting to write about what REALLY moves the heart & mind, rather than babbling about everything else.

But... to write with strong depth... just doesn't seem to work that well for me anymore.

As if i can't reach into that depths anymore. (I do within the realm of inner focus when I mediate, yes - but when sitting at the computer... it doesn't work so well) There, I don't feel that strong sense of freedom anymore (which during earlier times 25 years ago, I really had a great sense to write deep from my heart - because it felt like an amazing freedom. I didn't feel that it was too embarrassing nor being "too private". (At a time, when people really didn't want to expose themselves in such matters).

Well that was well before Facebook and Social media, you know.

 

Too much emotions on the outside ?

Perhaps my emotions were far more "on the outside" 25 years ago - like a pressure chamber escaping in chunks. I certainly am not like this in my Diary today, when it comes to private, personal emotions - how much or little i write about them today.

So, yeah, my style to write is in relative terms more simple, more boring, and has probably not even developed over the years. The reflection on the outside however, has changed... a bit *LOL*

 

I also don't feel as innocent anymore...

The weight of having dug into many rabbit holes, have changed the way i think and reflect about the world, about the people and everything else in it. It has gotten far more complex as well complicated, to say the least. I believe that when the internet was young, and I wrote a Diary that totally open; the combination of youth and naiveté and endless longing - gave it a certain kind of "charm" for others to read or even follow. Back then, people also were far more curious compared to today.

I've got many more layers accumulated during the latter decades... which makes it all "less innocent" and more conflicted of course.




 

Earlier

I think - I was very stubbornly believing the best of people. (I didn't always show that deep stubborn Wishful thinking "faith", though) Surely it made me deeply disappointed in periods, because my passion to sorrow, pain suffering by "living it" deeply in my heart - also played a strong roll to how i expressed myself back then. It was in that regard more naive - and the illusions still "purer", because I so deeply (partially hidden) insisted into believing in good vs bad. You can't truly categorize people in "good" vs "bad". (Except psychopaths - which are genetically failed human beings, without remorse or empathy for anything or anyone - ever)

Those above excluded, life and most people in it - isn't about good vs bad. (As much my ego perhaps sometimes want to claim and does judge them that way... it isn't really that simple) Action can be good vs bad. But also there, sometimes appearances may betray and be rooted in the opposite(s) or murky grounds.

I mean it can be far more complex, with many shades under the surface lurking, many programs going off in people "by default" or individual "triggers". Each one having roots, with many strings attached...

 

Nowadays, in the shadow of such extreme crimes

committed via most of our governments, authorities, medical "institutions" including healthcare, with such a blatant, obscured and criminally corrupted way - which brought hell to many lives destroying their health, as well deaths - it all makes me so angry. As 35+ million have been killed, 100+ millions got severe side effect altering their health for ever... means, we are talking about 135 million casualties under the deception of "health", "safety" and "protection" - while many politicians and usual suspects, laugh all the way to the bank. Literally giving you the finger.

 

Mass Murderers

Do you even realize that many of "our" politicians are literally mass murderers ? Who still speak in terms of "The Covid-19 vaccines are the best that have happened to us; They help to prevent serious diseases". Still supporting a partially lethal, highly detrimental technology to be injected into the bloodstream in millions; in children, in babies, in the frail ones... as well in fully healthy people.

For a "disease" which has a 0.1% to 0.5% mortality rate for people above 60 - which is exactly equivalent to a normal, seasonal flu. Which occurs every winter around the world.

Now we wonder why children in the age of 12 years, get heart attacks and turbo cancers. Or don't wake up next morning. How can you, as a citizen - or politicians for that matter - ever defend any of that ? What has that even to do with health ? The more injections, the more degraded the immune system.

Is that the "new" health regime ? What health ?

All that will in the light of truth NEVER hold up. When it comes to that - it will fail at ever single level - because when you scrutinize that genetic "technology", then realize - it is a bio-weapon - with many integrated highly detrimental mechanism, that destroy fertility, immunity and destroys also the mechanisms in our body, that normally protects us from cancer cells growing.

One day, these people behind the scene, as well in front and under the lime light of deception gospels - and everyone else who supported this shit to continue - make themselves participants to Crimes against Humanity.

 

OK ? Not by far

How can all that be ignored ? How is it possible that people in daily life, do not even react to it in any way ?! How is such ignorance even possible...

Apparently.

It is.





 


Last 4 years

That is what the past 4 years have shown to me. And apparently many would go extreme lengths to protect the lies, both deliberately, or by ignorance, or sheer denial.


I myself can not understand, how people can afford to be that ignorant. Spending many hours trying to find the best product for something, or the best oil for your car - or any other "best in test" product toget your hands on - yet - blindly letting them inject with something, that isn't a vaccine, but a genetic alteration of the very core of humanity; our human genome !

Our DNA.

The changes you get from altered DNA - are litterally irreversable.

It is in essence GMO they have been done to billions of people. Then - later - people don't connect the dots between illness and what they took into their blood... nor the fact, that the "vaccines" are now considered to be Bio-Weapons. (Florida and Arizona, now officially consider the Covid-19 shots to be Bio-Weapons).

Just a thing like that, more than plenty indicating that something is seriously off. We used to listen to such red flags. Until we suddenly, stopped thinking - gave fear everything.



Knowledge protects.
Ignorance endangers.


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